God is the Sunlight of my life. The peace in the midst of a storm. He has given me breath, and I thank Him. He has given me the ability to walk and talk, so I will live for Him. He has given me gifts, so I will share them. He has given me life, so I will glorify His name, and His name only.

God works in mysterious ways...*Part 2*

Mysterious indeed. His ways, aren't ours, so if we could just TRUST HIM, all would be well. People lie, He doesn't. Love doesn't lie, people do. I had some help realizing that. People will always fall short, but God's mercy doesn't. Mercy...Shout out to Kanye West.

As I look back on the past, I can say that I am bleseed. God kept me, so I wouldn't and couldn't let go of HIM. My faith was STRONG, and I knew He'd Keep His Promises. God is so Faithful and True. I'm Blue for Life, and it is His Glory I give thanks to.

Mistaken Identity

I haven't blogged in over 3 years, but the time is here, the time is now. Since my last post, needless to say I have grown and changed...A LOT. The person below is a little slow, and um, mistaken. Although not completely off, she had the wrong person in mind when talking about Love. You see, the person below was a girl who was always on a mission to find love. She came from a home that was shattered by a sexually demonic force. Although that house abounded in love, that girl never felt it.

My spiritual mother Mary Ilupeju wrote a book entitled: I didn't know I had an STD, Sexually Transmitted Demon. She goes in depth with the accounts of her own life and the power a sexual demon had from the time she was a child. This may sound strange to some, but once you read the book, you'll see that there aren't many of us out there that haven't experienced what she has...we just didn't have a name for it.

I read her book a few times, and felt like I was reading the story of my life. Unfortunately, many have read it and still refuse to be free because of shame. God is looking for those that will use their lives as testaments, not romantically-enthralled novels. I am here to say that I've been through it, and now I'm free of the bondage I once felt.

I've moved on and have found that special person that has been TRULY ordained to be in my life. We're amazing friends, and that means the world to me. The girl below was in bondage to someone that she thought loved her, someone that told her everything she wanted to hear, but was lost himself.

I'm not a victim. You can't be a victim to something if the person who caused the infliction is in bondage or suffrage themselves. Don't blame yourself, don't blame the other person, blame SATAN! He's literally a sneaky little devil that will twist and turn your arm. ARM yourself with the armor of CHRIST, and you'll be protected and freed.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the thoughts I have for you, says the Lord. Thoughts to prosper you, and not harm you, thoughts to give you hope and a future."

God works in mysterious ways...

This is my first post! Go me, go me, do the happy dance...oh...get it....work it boo! Okay, enough.

Wow. Well let me be the first to say (well not literally) God's ways aren't our ways, His thoughts aren't our thoughts, and His plans aren't our plans. Recently, God allowed a separation to occur with my fiance and I. The separation was a reflection on our relationship, but not 

because of our interactions or anything we did to each other. I contemplated whether or not I wanted to put our business out there, but if it helps someone else, then it's well worth it. For the sake of my life, I'm not going into concrete details (learned that term in English 101, lol), but I'll give you guys the gist. My booboo and I have been engaged for the last 2 months. The circumstances behind the way we met are interesting, but I'll save that for another time. Anyway, I brought him with me to meet my spiritual mother. She prayed for our relationship and that God would at the center of our relationship and the head of our relationship as well.  She prayed that we would be a beacon for young Christian couples, and that our relationship would be a Ministry. Well, little did I realize that God would separate us soon after. Why you may ask? Well, we got to a point where we looked to each other to fill voids,  confided in one another first, trusted each other first, and so on. God said NO, NO, NO, NO, NO! You all are surely aware that God is a jealous God, oh yes He is. All the things we were looking to each other to do, He wanted us to look to Him instead. He allowed a separation to occur. Although the situation can LITERALLY be explained for our inability to communicate, from a SPIRITUAL stand-point, I'd be a fool not to realize that God allowed it to happen for a reason. After kicking, and crying and screaming because all I wanted was my fiance, I gave up. I had been going around in circles asking: "Please let me talk to him, let me see him, let me hear from him." It didn't happen. I finally gave up and just looked at the ceiling while in bed and asked God why he was allowing this to happen. I have NEVER heard His voice so clearly until that day. I finally asked the right question, and  here was His response: "You need to seek me first to find him. You need to love me first as your Father, and everything else will fall into place. Before you devote yourself to him as his wife, you need to love me first, trust me first, and confide in me first. Before you can do these things with your husband, you must remember to come to me first. I am the light, the truth, the glory and salvation. I supply your needs, and I am your creator. I giveth and I taketh. You need to build your relationship stronger with me, before you can fully devote yourself to him." That was the beginning of the revelations to come; for the storm was just beginning.